PAIN and me..........

thousands of unsaid words....
millions of unspoken feelings......
all of them pinch me ... every single day .... every single moment ...

shards of broken dreams which i am trying to piece together in a jigsaw puzzle...
in the end to realise that some pieces are missing .....
trying to search them ... bt found that those were smthng that were never mine....
they belonged to some one else

thats wat life is all about v keep on cribbing and wishing for thngs that were nvr ours ...
v try to create a perfect world

but does such a world exists ??????
why do things turn out to be the way they are?
why cant we have a utopian place?

Pain of hurting smone although we know we are not doing the right thing but still we go on with it...
but y do we have to do such things...
why hurting smone whom we love more than ourselves...
i guess its coz when we hurt smone we get hurt more and smhow this pain gives us solace....
it makes us more realizable of our mistakes .....

heart bleeds even at the thought of it ...
tears flow even at its mention .....
time stops wen we think about it .....

and we keep on asking the same thing again .......
did everthing had to end up like this .... y ????

LOVE.........

farce or reality .....
selfish or selfless .....
is it true or just as fake as most of the things....
can it be someone's strength or weakness .....
is it a part of life or life in itself ....

difficult questions ..... arent they???????
would i be able to find their answers ......
at times i laugh at them ....
dont know whether it could be what it is suppossed to be or rather claimed to be ....

v all have heard a lot of stories of them but how many of us really believe that they could be true .....
but i guess v have already experienced it .... the love of our parents ... most selfless and beautiful thing in the world ..... the way my mother and father love me .....
whenever i think of it i get the answers of all the questions rather they seem too unimportant to be even given a thought ....

it seems too sweet to be true ... too beautiful to be real ... seems more like a dream which i would never want to end......
but can it remain the same or it changes with time .....
can it be that strong to make people do things that seem impossible ....
wishing life could tell me the answer ...
would be waiting for it